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I am not a saint I can only take so much. I am human and i need to be loved; just like everbody else does. I hate feeling this way; hwo do I feel? empty again.
'Gone Away' played twice on my headphones today, the batteries are so dead that I can only listen to the radio, and both times I almost broke down. Why does it bother me so much now but never before? I miss him something terribly these last few months...All i want ti to call his old number and ask him how he would handle these things, ask him to send me some cash. Unlike mom he would have. Then I have to remind myself hes dead. And the last thing i told him was to 'drop dead' two days before he died...
Months after he died sitting on Shiny's floor in the old house I was staring at the ceiling when 'Gone Away' came on I remember telling her about the good times, how me and him used to blare that song and sing as loud as we could with it. How I wanted to put black roses on his grave in honor of that memory. Its been three years. Still no black roses. Still never seen it. I miss him terribly.
I just want to talk to my Dad, but every time I call home my mom answers and does nothing but bitch and bitch...I just want my dad...He always makes me feel better. Don't get me wrong I cant stand to be near either of them for long but i love talking to my dad on the phone hes so cracky. he's part Indian so he claims anyway, so a lot of times he answers the phone if its raining up there saying shit like "Kate! My rain dance worked!" Dad's always good for a laugh even if he is a dirty old pervert. I still love the man.
There a lot of its off my chest. The rest shall stay; update on baby bro by the way. If he misses more then 5 days before Christmas him mom and dad all go to jail. lets see what happens to my family. Did i mention he missed 95 days last year?
'Gone Away' played twice on my headphones today, the batteries are so dead that I can only listen to the radio, and both times I almost broke down. Why does it bother me so much now but never before? I miss him something terribly these last few months...All i want ti to call his old number and ask him how he would handle these things, ask him to send me some cash. Unlike mom he would have. Then I have to remind myself hes dead. And the last thing i told him was to 'drop dead' two days before he died...
Months after he died sitting on Shiny's floor in the old house I was staring at the ceiling when 'Gone Away' came on I remember telling her about the good times, how me and him used to blare that song and sing as loud as we could with it. How I wanted to put black roses on his grave in honor of that memory. Its been three years. Still no black roses. Still never seen it. I miss him terribly.
I just want to talk to my Dad, but every time I call home my mom answers and does nothing but bitch and bitch...I just want my dad...He always makes me feel better. Don't get me wrong I cant stand to be near either of them for long but i love talking to my dad on the phone hes so cracky. he's part Indian so he claims anyway, so a lot of times he answers the phone if its raining up there saying shit like "Kate! My rain dance worked!" Dad's always good for a laugh even if he is a dirty old pervert. I still love the man.
There a lot of its off my chest. The rest shall stay; update on baby bro by the way. If he misses more then 5 days before Christmas him mom and dad all go to jail. lets see what happens to my family. Did i mention he missed 95 days last year?
