So my mama just called I was guessing she was asking when she should pick me up from the bus station I lied to my family you see they think Im broke and cant come to christmas but truth is I'm going to New York with Shinys family for the first time in my life, gonna visit the wife. those plans may be in jeporedy now.

She said there was a problem with my dad, then handed off the phone Dad was just saying he was cold and joking with me I thoufght nothing of it kind of laughed when he was like "the vampires took my blood and have me sitting here half naked in this cold place, they wont give me another blanket." He is why I call nurses vampires if anyone ever wondered that. Anyway so my mom gets the phone abck and I was finally smart enough to ask WHY dad had been there since new and what do I get?

"Oh he had a heart attack this morning, it's what killed his father ya know. and his father was sixity, you needed to know Kate. Your fathers not getting any younger."

ONE. Dad is 56 or 57 I cant remember which HES GOT A FEW YEARS. His father was a surpize death before I was even born or she knew the man. so ma can quit talking like she knows. TWO hes not going to quit smoking we tried this EVERY damn attack hes ever had. THREE why the hell did she use the cell by a heart monitor? Really woman. Honestly.

I broke the news I'm not coming but I told her its because work wont give me the days off they may not at that but if anything happens to my father I wont be seeing Hika yet again. Because I will be on the first bus to Cincinatti....or Lexington. I could get Josh to take me home from there. I dont want that to happen though I'll visit around my birthday when theres no con deadly soon. I cant run home every six months anymore. I'm 22 years old. I gotta grow up...

I want my daddy to be okay, but I know what I have to do.