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I'm tired adn I felt it for awhile now.
Nov. 5th, 2008 04:06 amfrom irate, to sorry for speaking to sad to not sure. All I have is determantation to change things now. I dont want ti pay the bills anymore, I probally will leave that to Shiny so she can do with the money what she sees fit becuase I'm not thinking rigght and I know it. I really am becoming very childish and selfish.
For example, the stupidity of everyone yelling at Maymay was okay teh first hour or so...aftewords it was just cruel drawn out and I didnt want to deal with it. Shes already broken over Tim(babies daddy) being chased off what more did they truly need to yell about? I refuse to fully beleive all the stuff ehr mom was coming up with.
And why after all this time I choose to step up and speak out against there father why was I shocked when he reacted the way I did? Was I suppose to stay quiet and agree? No one knows whats going on but I keep giving myself migraines trying to figure out whats going on to try and make some peace... its not working.
and she leaves tomorrow... That means we are all going to catch hell from there dad as soon as there mom is gone, and I wont want to deal with it...So i want to just keep sleeping. I'm going to ask Shawte for as many hours as shes willing to give me and to not sen me home. I want to come hoem and colapze everyday just so I dont have to deal. Yeah escapisum at its best.
I'm fucking hungry I haven't changed for work yet and I have to leave in ten minutes. go me.
For example, the stupidity of everyone yelling at Maymay was okay teh first hour or so...aftewords it was just cruel drawn out and I didnt want to deal with it. Shes already broken over Tim(babies daddy) being chased off what more did they truly need to yell about? I refuse to fully beleive all the stuff ehr mom was coming up with.
And why after all this time I choose to step up and speak out against there father why was I shocked when he reacted the way I did? Was I suppose to stay quiet and agree? No one knows whats going on but I keep giving myself migraines trying to figure out whats going on to try and make some peace... its not working.
and she leaves tomorrow... That means we are all going to catch hell from there dad as soon as there mom is gone, and I wont want to deal with it...So i want to just keep sleeping. I'm going to ask Shawte for as many hours as shes willing to give me and to not sen me home. I want to come hoem and colapze everyday just so I dont have to deal. Yeah escapisum at its best.
I'm fucking hungry I haven't changed for work yet and I have to leave in ten minutes. go me.
