We can wash down this engagement ring With poison and kerosene

you place your faith in me, you place your stress in my heart. my heart that has the stress of twenty years of disappointment, heartbreak disappointment and abuse. your life sucks. I get this; I understand your pain and suffering for once I can truly say i understand the pain of your loss like i couldn do those days i laid beside you in your bed....when you wept for your sisters lose and told me your pain I unsympathized when i didnt want to because the pain i knew was not yours...but now with my brother gone i know your pain....well what i know is my pain its all i really have in this pathetic life of mine. If I had the nerve I would say these things out loud to you...but I know you never read my journal so you will never know how much i hate your angst and wish to kill you most times I'm around you....but when i come home for the summer....Ill smile hug you and lay beside you listening to your angst while i wish your just shut up before i bust your face in....but ill never raise a hand to you...not outside my head anyway......

-Kate
Avenge Thy Love, for Eternal Rest