Someone save my soul tonight, please save my soul

Oh how I negeltc this thing,

well shes back, yes Mommy is home after a month MIA. she brought back order and chaos which is like chinese food sweet and sour, i missed her. but tonight Quannas dad and her started to fight...and i mean hard core fight. like i used to watch in the trailor park~ makes me sorta miss home >.> i think i could take some lessons from Mommy and no i dont know why im calling Quannas mother Mommy i just started one day and kept doing it.

i can remember being very small and Bob (real father) screaming at my mother its my earliest memories are of theer fights and how terrified yet i never remember him hitting her or my fathers face only that its him, after he abbandoned me then came John, my beloved tsep father i didnt always addore him as i do now there was a time i down right hated the man and wished death upon him. i grew up though i know that the hell he put me through the fears he tacted into me made me a better person in the long run,my family may have hated him but i love that old man now. but his screams terried me as a child growing into my teens sometimes when he would be yelling i would hide praying he wouldnt find me and when he did hed make me wish i hadnt hide, then when Lisa (real dads ex) screamed she made my skin crawl like she planned to hurt everyone with her screams. screaming scares me to this day.

so when they were fighting tonight the old fear kicked in...i didnt like it one bit but i clutched onto Cameron and held him as they fought her mom has some bad ass skillz and Quanna managed to take him down it was odd and cool how she just jumps up with no fear and charges in when its someone i really dont like and i ahve a reason or im just in a mood i can do that but ive been to calm lately...i feel like this place is changing me maybe its for the better maybe not.

-Kate
Avenge Thy Love, for Eternal Rest