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I'm sick of making depressing entries I feel like some kind of emo-kid every time. I don't know why I quit fighting back against the dumb-shit of the world. Instead I've been submitting and just letting everything beat me down into a very sleepy state. I am barely awake two hours and I get fucking tired again. I know for fact I slept at LEAST 16 hours yesterday another three hours I was just laying around. I do want to rp. I do want to talk to my friends, maybe even watch some of these movies I have laying around.
But I don't I lay around and just think about shit I have no control over. Even if I did no one listens to me. I have realized now that I have just stopped with my idea of getting fired and face I will likely be working at McDonald's forever. It is now I realize they will never fire me. they work hard not to write me up cause they know I will get unemployment and they don't want that. They need me to be their bitch who will just do what they say and not argue.
I don't hate my job honestly, I hate my boss. All the other managers are cool as hell. But Nat turns into a clone when Erica is around and Drell has his days. Either way Erica is two faced. She looks you in the eye and makes you he friend then she stabs you over and over again.
Other then work I have no idea whats got me so down. I think I just need to make some changes in my life that would make me and everyone involved so much happier. Like looking into jobs that pay weekly and at least 300 a week opposed to maybe 350 every two weeks. I deserve better. My GED and permit are on the list to. I want to make myself better so that I'm not just some bum hanging off my friends good will.
Basically that's all I am. I'm going back to bed.
But I don't I lay around and just think about shit I have no control over. Even if I did no one listens to me. I have realized now that I have just stopped with my idea of getting fired and face I will likely be working at McDonald's forever. It is now I realize they will never fire me. they work hard not to write me up cause they know I will get unemployment and they don't want that. They need me to be their bitch who will just do what they say and not argue.
I don't hate my job honestly, I hate my boss. All the other managers are cool as hell. But Nat turns into a clone when Erica is around and Drell has his days. Either way Erica is two faced. She looks you in the eye and makes you he friend then she stabs you over and over again.
Other then work I have no idea whats got me so down. I think I just need to make some changes in my life that would make me and everyone involved so much happier. Like looking into jobs that pay weekly and at least 300 a week opposed to maybe 350 every two weeks. I deserve better. My GED and permit are on the list to. I want to make myself better so that I'm not just some bum hanging off my friends good will.
Basically that's all I am. I'm going back to bed.
