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I got the fucking job so I can go to the goddamned convention but now I'm wondering if I should go now. I should just send Shiny with Jen and say fuck it. I should just work through the convention and pay the fucking power bill on my own. I don't even know why I am angry I don't have a right to be angry. I don't even know how I feel. I just feel empty and stupid...
Phone bill=paid
internet=paid
Rent=paid
Power = pending and huge.
This is me being royally fucked and I know I didn't break even on my check because I was sick two days in a row and missed work. So now what do I do? Some days I wish I didn't wake up. And FUCK if I don't wanna make that god damned walk back up to work, why the fuck can they hold myc heck to make sure we all show up! WHAT KIND OF SHIT IS THIS!
Wanting to punch man-bitch in the nuts, and actually speak my mind to Mama...wow...this sounds like I'm back home. But I have no back bone so I wont say anything...Hey Mommy cant bitch about me being irresponcable anymore.
Why do I get myself worked up over this stuff the past few days I've felt that old pain rising, yeah I know whats coming and I don't need you back in my life my dear friend.
-Kate
Phone bill=paid
internet=paid
Rent=paid
Power = pending and huge.
This is me being royally fucked and I know I didn't break even on my check because I was sick two days in a row and missed work. So now what do I do? Some days I wish I didn't wake up. And FUCK if I don't wanna make that god damned walk back up to work, why the fuck can they hold myc heck to make sure we all show up! WHAT KIND OF SHIT IS THIS!
Wanting to punch man-bitch in the nuts, and actually speak my mind to Mama...wow...this sounds like I'm back home. But I have no back bone so I wont say anything...Hey Mommy cant bitch about me being irresponcable anymore.
Why do I get myself worked up over this stuff the past few days I've felt that old pain rising, yeah I know whats coming and I don't need you back in my life my dear friend.
-Kate
