You may take my heart away.

Okay, I am really terrible at serious posts but I guess thats what this needs, I am really not a serious person as most people know its my way of protecting myself from pain by laughing and making everything a joke. So bare with me in a moment of truth, a look into how Koko fucks up and makes a whole lot of drama via; misunderstanding. And thus made things worse. 

This post; is about me in short I am the idiot who caused this drama because of my stupid ideas and then misunderstanding my friend's feelings. So in reguards of trying to make things  better I made them worse, and made Shiny feel like she needed to drop her muses. This is my fault no one elses, so please do not be mad at Shiny, if ill feelings are had please direct them at me and no one else.

To make matters worse I entended to call and try and straighten things out last night but I was dead tired and feel asleep waiting for the phone to be free, I know Char called me sometime last night but I seriously dont remember talking to her thats how tired I was. Anyway.

I want to formally apologize to yasuyoshi for any trouble and pain I may have caused If you wish I can quit calling just please let me know what is is you would like to do, I likely wont be the one responding more likely Shiny will be. My time is almost up.

Thank you for your time.
- Koko

ps: Thank you for the package Haru, I will be watching Heat Guy J tonight.

Heat Guy J Emo Post

Everytime I see an update on the community, I feel a little part of me die that no one likes my fandom. The only people who knew it when I joined Cross was Haru and Ali, Saku only accepted Clair becuase he was bat-shit insane and oh so cute.

I really want a Daisuke, not for the OH MY GOD GAY potinial, no. He is Kia's only friend in the series, and I feel that interaction would be nice in cross. Not that he is not content with his life with the Hellsing Household and Sora's random shit.

He just needs a medium outside of the normal everyday.  This is something I was thinking about on the way home from work too, mainly becuase I heard people talking a bout street musicians but I dont know...the fact theres a drama cd now and the manga has Kia too and I will never get these thing makes me a little sad inside; then again I cant understand japanese so I wouldnt understand anyway...

Since last year I have pondered whoreing out Cross on the comm...but I dont know.

-Koko