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Some days I just wonder why I even bother rolling out of bed or logging on. I hide in inviable today for hours simply because I had a headache and didn't feel like dealing with people, after almost getting shot today I think I had a right to want to be left alone. So todays rundown, I wake up to Missy upset because someone ate her dinner and she wanted to know who did I was too tired to deal with this shit but I sat there and listened then sat by Shiny and listened to the nightly report before we hit town.
which meant cashing her small check getting gas and food for the house not much since we only had 40 bucks mind you. We went job hunting too not that this will save the internet as I said any day now it will be shut off, we don't have the money its not our fault were poor. Its not my fault that a sheet of paper is more valuable than a human life. what the fuck why is a diploma so important anyway. I don't need calculus to flip burgers. I got to my last two months what the fuck....
After this we have her brothers kid dumped on us and her brother busting in trying to take his stereo back to pawn it, I'm glad i broke it. Its staying fuck him I need a radio for when I cant be online I will lose my mind if I have to go another day laying in bed thinking without music. even commercials are better than nothing.
anyway so we take her brother to work and then the kid to the park in which we walked the paths until I heard this bunch of people fighting and if you think this is racist screw you, but living with Ali's family Ive learned when black people are yelling a guns involved and GTFO, there was a birthday party we walked past and these men were screaming I told Missy to hurry up cause I got a bad feeling one had a gun as soon as I said it the guy pulled one out and the other yelled 'fuck a gun' SEE SEE! I LEARNED WHAT JAJUAN TOLD ME! I pay attention to her! so we hurried away dragging the kid who wanted to go play right by the fight no less.
after this Missys paranoid I am highly stressed and want nothing more than to sleep, so I take a nap and wake up stumble online.
This didnt really help, some people made me feel like shit. I wont name you or what you do but if you have an idea I'm talking about you think about what you do. for those of you who KNOW what this line is about, do NOT comment leaving names, I will hurt you.
Why did randomly seeing THIS picture of my brother which is my default for that gallery almost make me burst into tears? his deaths never fully bothered me, but I was upset and went to upload some images for a friend and saw the icon and almost started crying. I feel so fucked up lately.
Ill never have a good post again.
-Kate
which meant cashing her small check getting gas and food for the house not much since we only had 40 bucks mind you. We went job hunting too not that this will save the internet as I said any day now it will be shut off, we don't have the money its not our fault were poor. Its not my fault that a sheet of paper is more valuable than a human life. what the fuck why is a diploma so important anyway. I don't need calculus to flip burgers. I got to my last two months what the fuck....
After this we have her brothers kid dumped on us and her brother busting in trying to take his stereo back to pawn it, I'm glad i broke it. Its staying fuck him I need a radio for when I cant be online I will lose my mind if I have to go another day laying in bed thinking without music. even commercials are better than nothing.
anyway so we take her brother to work and then the kid to the park in which we walked the paths until I heard this bunch of people fighting and if you think this is racist screw you, but living with Ali's family Ive learned when black people are yelling a guns involved and GTFO, there was a birthday party we walked past and these men were screaming I told Missy to hurry up cause I got a bad feeling one had a gun as soon as I said it the guy pulled one out and the other yelled 'fuck a gun' SEE SEE! I LEARNED WHAT JAJUAN TOLD ME! I pay attention to her! so we hurried away dragging the kid who wanted to go play right by the fight no less.
after this Missys paranoid I am highly stressed and want nothing more than to sleep, so I take a nap and wake up stumble online.
This didnt really help, some people made me feel like shit. I wont name you or what you do but if you have an idea I'm talking about you think about what you do. for those of you who KNOW what this line is about, do NOT comment leaving names, I will hurt you.
Why did randomly seeing THIS picture of my brother which is my default for that gallery almost make me burst into tears? his deaths never fully bothered me, but I was upset and went to upload some images for a friend and saw the icon and almost started crying. I feel so fucked up lately.
Ill never have a good post again.
-Kate
